so any way. i feel the need to talk about how grateful i am for the point in life i am. ive got alot of awesome things going for me.
first and foremost. im living in my own place with the most amazing best friend someone could possibly ask for. i didnt ever think it would be possible but i think living with sheila has just been so amazing. not to mention this house is just amazing. there are alot of things wrong with it. but i think thats what make it awesome. the sink sucks, the dryer squeeks, the tiolet runs. but the back yard is huge, the cat has his own room, every one has their own space and we have an awesome space for all of us to sit down to eat if we wanted to. its really really aweomse and i feel so blessed to be able to live here.
i bought a car. that is AMAZING. it feels so liberating to be able to go where ever i want, whenever i want.
i cut some ties a while back with a friend, and i thought it would make that person realize they were being stupid and passing up something awesome. that they should change their behavoirs. well cutting the ties didnt do that. and i still dont talk to that friend. ive realized that maybe this is for the best. and maybe i should have done it along time ago and saved my self some tears. but at the same time. i have to say i feel a void. although i think it will heal, i miss my friend. very very much. even though it sucks there is a silver lining. im glad ive reached a point in my life where i have so much respect for my self. i think im actually done eating shit, and being walked all over and all that awfulness. ive never been like this before. being proud of sticking up for what i beilve in makes me feel so good. also ive been listening to a breakin up by rilo kiley on repeat. it reminds me so much of this situation.... "its not as if new york city burnt down to the ground once you drove away, and its not as if the sun wont shine when the clouds up above wash the blues away. are we breakin up? are we breakin up? is there trouble between you and i? are we breakin up? are we breaking up? did myheart break enough this time? heres to all the pretty words we will never speak. heres to all the pretty girls your guna meet" ..... even though its not like we were together to break up. its not the point. friends can break up too. if youve never heard the song download it. its amazing
rich is on some crazy nature hike for a week. witch sucks. and i already miss him terriblly, but just like i said before there is a silver lining in every thing. witch leads me to the last thing i want to touch on for a minute. oden.
my sweet little baby boy, yeah im going to sound like a crazy cat lady. but i dont care. i cant beilve how lucky ive gotten with him. oden is my hairless cat. he is by far the most amazinf animal ive ever laid eyes on. i get to spend the entire week with him. he sleeps in my bed with me under the covers and snuggles so close its amaxzing. he's actually sleeping in between my and my lap top right now. it feels so good to such an affectionate little sweet heart around all the time. i feel kind of guilty because i dont think i spend enough time with him. im always out and about and when i am home i dont get home till late. i know he's an animal but i feel like its really important to make him know how much i love him. and i think sometimes i suck at that.
im going to get my body and my mind on the same page. im going ot start eating right, not drinking, and working out. i went and signed up for a gym membership tonoight. so hopefully by the time its swimming season ill look good in a bathingsuit. i weighed my self this morning for the first time in a while and almost passed out. it was GROSS. so on that note im going to go to bed so i can get up and work out.
OH! one more think. the dafadills. come on. how could any one not be happy when theres all these aweoms flowers everywhere???
how could you not love that little man?
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